Ovulation was successful. I have very mixed feelings. On one hand, I would really love to have another child but starting over feels so overwhelming. The lack of sleep, long nights, and finding a baby sitter to get away but I know that’s all relative and I have so much family here that can AND…
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Aurora Shooting Mimics Miscarriage Grief
Day 6 after the Aurora shooting. So, I have been literally too exhausted to journal. That’s not like me at all but everything from this shooting is draining me and as I said before, I am not related to a victim. The shooting has taken so much out of me and most days, it’s too…
Aurora Shooting Day Three
It’s so difficult to watch everyone else go on their family weekends, go hiking, walking, running, just plain having fun, etc while I spent the entire weekend in bed, sleeping for well over 30 hours, pushing my son away on my brother-in-law’s family because I have absolutely no energy, all the while feeling guilty for…
Don’t Be Sad For Me Poem
This was a poem I submitted for publication in an online magazine. It was not chosen for publication so I am sharing it here. This was something I wrote following a friend stating she was sad for me because I was not working full-time as a police officer. Don’t be sad for me, because I…
Trying Again?
I ordered fertility meds again. Not sure what else to say about this fact but I DID order medications. This doesn’t mean I will take them, but they are there for me to use if I so choose. It’s not as simple as just taking them though. They have to be timed perfectly. Everything with…
Already July? A bit on infertility.
It’s July 1st! We are over half way through the year. Where is the time going? I didn’t blog last week. Work had me consumed. It is getting frustrating to be getting home so late and I continue to work on a way to be home for my son. He starts school in August and…
A Walk With God
REPUBLISHED: From All That is Seen and Unseen Website. I don’t really consider myself a very religious person. I am strong in my Catholic faith, but definitely not one who can quote from the Bible or lead a prayer; however, today, God has once again revealed to me why I am here. Today, I walked…
All That is Seen and Unseen In the News
REPUBLISHED FROM : http://www.examiner.com:80/infertility-miscarriage-in-denver/i-always-wanted-to-write-a-book-i-just-never-thought-it-would-be-this-book ————————————————————————————— “I always wanted to write a book, I just never thought I would write THIS book,” acknowledged new author, Elizabeth Petrucelli, at her recent book launch. Over the past several years, Elizabeth began, but never finished, two other books; one on being a police SWAT wife, and another about her…
The Silence of First Trimester Miscarriage
REPUBLISHED FROM OLD BLOG ALL THAT IS SEEN AND UNSEEN (Apparently, this was my first blog post ever). Why are people so silent about first trimester miscarriage? It is so common yet I don’t understand why our feelings are pushed aside. I realize that any loss of a child is difficult and “taboo” but it’s…