This is going to be a very controversial post. I won’t divulge too much information about where I heard this but this has been on my mind for a few weeks. While having a conversation with NICU personnel (not at my hospital), the discussion came up about how some parents prolong their sick child’s life….
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You are NOT alone! You are normal!
I learned today that I am NORMAL! I am NOT alone in my feelings about my new baby following my pregnancy loss. It was so comforting to learn that. I had the feeling that my emotions were normal but I really needed to hear this. Did you know that if you have experienced a pregnancy…
The Carly Marie Capture Your Grief – 2013
Tomorrow is October 1st and the trees are turning in Colorado. October marks the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. October 15th is the national day of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness. This year, I will be participating in Carly Marie’s Project Heal – Capture Your Grief. (#captureyourgrief). So, for each day of the month, I will…
The annual Walk to Remember
On September 28, 2013, we attended the annual Walk to Remember. This has become our annual memorial remembrance for Ruby Josephine. I dreaded the early morning wake up and rush out the door but I really wanted to attend. There was a moment where I felt like backing out but I am so glad we…
Parenting After Loss
You are going to see a new category called Parenting After Loss. I am looking for a good book on this right now. If I can’t find one, maybe it’s time to write one. Parenting After Loss is going to be the category I use from now on when talking about my rainbow baby. I…
When to seek therapy for thoughts on my rainbow baby?
Well, I did nothing today for my bereavement journey and I broke down and cried when putting Timmy down for the night. Hormones? Long day? Being tired because I got such little sleep last night? I don’t know but maybe it’s time to talk with my therapist again. At the very least, I would like…
I love Love and Logic
I just started teaching my Love and Logic series again. Oh, how I love this program. Watching the video’s with my students has brought back so many memories of when I took the class to assist me with parenting Joey. I can’t wait to apply these techniques so early with Timmy because we didn’t start…
Sleepy Prince
It’s late and you are very tired. After feeding you, I lay you in your crib after kissing you so softly on the forehead. I am doing what “good” parents are supposed to do by putting you in your crib awake. This is supposed to give you skills to fall asleep on your own. You…
Music
I can still hear it. The music I used to listen to that reminded me of you. I downloaded it to my iPod and would plug in my ear phones to become lost in imagining your face, your smell, your smile. Held, by Natalie Grant. I have blogged about that song a few times. It…
Random thoughts on losing a child
I spent much of today thinking about this bereavement doula journey I am on. I have been surrounded by stories of miscarriage and infant loss much of today and it’s draining so much out of me. I just want to sit and cry for all the parents who have lost a child. It doesn’t matter…