Well, I did nothing today for my bereavement journey and I broke down and cried when putting Timmy down for the night. Hormones? Long day? Being tired because I got such little sleep last night? I don’t know but maybe it’s time to talk with my therapist again. At the very least, I would like…
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I love Love and Logic
I just started teaching my Love and Logic series again. Oh, how I love this program. Watching the video’s with my students has brought back so many memories of when I took the class to assist me with parenting Joey. I can’t wait to apply these techniques so early with Timmy because we didn’t start…
Sleepy Prince
It’s late and you are very tired. After feeding you, I lay you in your crib after kissing you so softly on the forehead. I am doing what “good” parents are supposed to do by putting you in your crib awake. This is supposed to give you skills to fall asleep on your own. You…
Music
I can still hear it. The music I used to listen to that reminded me of you. I downloaded it to my iPod and would plug in my ear phones to become lost in imagining your face, your smell, your smile. Held, by Natalie Grant. I have blogged about that song a few times. It…
Random thoughts on losing a child
I spent much of today thinking about this bereavement doula journey I am on. I have been surrounded by stories of miscarriage and infant loss much of today and it’s draining so much out of me. I just want to sit and cry for all the parents who have lost a child. It doesn’t matter…
Bereavement Doula Training
It’s almost time for my first step of my bereavement doula training journey. On October 1st, I will be participating in the bereavement training offered by The Wishbone Foundation. I am very excited to be attending this training. It has become more and more apparent that I need it and I would like to use it. I…
The Bereavement Doula
What is a bereavement doula? This is a person who provides support to a family experiencing a pregnancy loss. For me, most recently, a bereavement doula is someone who provides emotional support and resources to a family that the hospital could not provide. I had the unfortunate experience of assisting a family through a loss recently and while it…
That “crazy” client. How do you handle her?
I met my doula for lunch today. She is such a joy in my life and while we don’t see each other often, we text and chat (online) almost every day. I envy her passion and excitement for doula work. I used to be there but am still burnt out despite several years away from…
Our Yellowstone Trip
Well, Timothy is around eight weeks old for this trip. Isn’t he cute? Here he is sleeping on mommy while waiting at the Old Faithful Geyser. I can’t believe we have taken him through five states since birth. Our trip was pretty fun. It was a great LAST trip of the summer before we all returned…
These horrible random thoughts!
Dear Timmy, On vacation, I continue to have these random thoughts of you being dead. I hate these thoughts. I don’t feel like there is any reason to be having these thoughts but they enter my mind at odd times and I can’t stop them. For instance, while changing your diaper and putting your nightgown…